Meant To Be

Anyone that knows our family knows that Parker is....a handful.  He is the sweetest, funniest, most affectionate wild boy I know!

But being his Mom can be difficult. I often feel like I am doing everything wrong. People have always told me that God gave him to us because we are the perfect parents for him. When told this I would think to myself, "what do I know?" "what do I have to offer this child?" "I feel so unequipped". I knew that God gave him to us because His design is perfect, but I honestly hadn't seen how I was better equipped to be his Mom.

Until today.

He had a really bad time at the dentist this morning and I was able to talk him down and he got the fillings done. I went back knowing what to say and how to say it to calm him down. 6 months ago he and I both would have been frustrated with each other and both would have ended up crying! (True story, this happened at a new church we went to visit. Best Mom day ever. Not)

Thanks to counseling, Parker is learning how to control himself and I am learning how to handle situations better by understanding him better.  God has shown me in the past couple of months how to be the Mom to Parker He always had planned for me! There are still days I feel confused, but the nights I go to bed feeling like a total failure are less and less. So, Yay for that! :)

I still get really frustrated with people when I feel like they are judging him or us as his parents because he has a difficult time controlling himself. I want people to see the hilarious tender hearted boy he really is under all that crazy energy! But for now, I will be proud of him because he is doing well in, and enjoying gymnastics. I will be thankful he is finally bathing himself without whining. (I may just kiss his counselor for that one!) I will be joyful that he likes school and is controlling himself during class. (And that he has a teacher that is truly God sent!) I will be thankful we do not yell in our house anymore. I will be optimistic that we will have more "good" days than "bad" ones. And when I see all the greatness in him, others will too.

Mothers Day Poem

I mean, really. How can you not love this kid? :)